Over thinking often leads to a life not lived...

They say curiosity killed the cat...
I've always liked that phrase but I guess I liked it best when it's combined with the theory of felines having nine lives...

Do you think they use eight towards curious endeavors?
I wonder if I would be less of a weenie if I had few extras lying around?

I've recently came to the conclusion that I just need to suck it up.
I can't let anxiety of new things get in my way.
It's been bad in the last month especially after Ian went on tour. Some days I've gotten to the point of full blown attacks.

Mind over matter. That's my new motto. I've been sticking myself in situations where my anexity has been the worst. Making myself confront my fears head on...
It's been working! :]

The last week or so I believe I have more control than I have since I've moved from Indiana. :]
Here's what I've accomplished in the effort of self improvement and stepping out of my comfort zone in the last couple of weeks.

-After being without a car and anyone to drive me place to place I had to venture completely on my own...Without any trouble have been going all over town and to work by walking or public transit. Which has made me so much more comfortable with the city. It's been strange without a car but I definitely needed this to break out of my shell. :]

-I signed up for kickboxing lessons! :] My first lesson will be next week. I'm really excited to find my center and exercise at the same time.

-Fully understanding how my body reacts to different foods. Cutting out lots of dairy, red meat, overprocessed food, and coffee. Eating tons of grains, fruits, and veggies. I love how my body feels and my skin is starting to look. After eating so well then falling off the bandwagon because of a craving the other day made me realize how my eating habits truly affect me. It's amazing. In the habit of treating my body right I've completely changed my cosmetics and skincare routine. Love it!

- I've been trying to read more. Someone suggested an amazing book! Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. I've been obsessed ever since. I'll be on a quest for another book soon. :]

-In order to achieve my ambition of creating my own jewelry line I started a separate account, making business plans, ordering supplies, and cleaning up my brand. I'm very excited. Many of you know.. it takes time and many trials in order to start something you are truly happy with. I have finally found some designs I'm truly in love with. :] Everything is on track to launch this late spring/early summer. :D

-Surprise opportunity occurred! :] I was asked to model for a very nice salon that's located downtown Seattle. I've model for multiple hair cosmetic companies before during hair shows but not for an actual salon. Professional photos. Styled. I'm very excited to see how my hair and the photos will turn out. Also, I hope this opportunity will allow me to work with them again in the future with other events and opportunities. :]

Progress. Progress. Progress. Love. Love. Loooove.

I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that over thinking so much can stop me from enjoying life. Taking the necessary leaps to get me to where I want to be.
I'm excited for what's in store ladies and gents! :]

Over thinking often leads to a life not lived. ;]

Footing.

The last year has been like gaining my footing on a tightrope.
Unbalanced.
One wrong step..
One wrong move..
It's been a hectic walk... Emotionally, physically, mentally, and financially.

For the first time in a very long time I feel stable in every aspect of my life.

Family. Relationship. Work. Education. Finances. Creativity.

I feel like I can finally take clear steps on improving my lifestyle.
The key is.. I believe I can finally balance them all without anything taking away from the others.
Or stressing me out to the point of overwhelmingly paralyzing my self growth..
I know this blog started out with certain things planned. Certain goals in mind. They are all still there.. Just in adjusted a little.
This time I will be giving myself time frames. 
Here's a few...

-Get my car fixed by the time Ian goes on tour.. (March 15th)
-Start an exercising routine (with or without a gym) in the next two weeks.
-Continue my healthy eating habits while increasing my water intake and allowing for some healthy amounts of sweets here and there.
-Read more. Two books a month. I know it's not a lot... But going from barely reading anymore to reading two books a month will get me on track to reading more. :]
-Start up school again in September so I can finish (finally!) and proceed on to a Masters.
-Draw. Doodle. Sketch. Once a day. Even if it's a stick figure or something I'll eventually throw away.
-Reopen my savings and start another checking/savings account for personal endeavors (so it's no way connected to my billing account) within the next week.
-create test version of jewelry in the next two weeks.
-create a legitimate business plan for a retailer, cafe, or venue in the next two months.
-clean up some designs for my accessory facebook and website in the next week.
-create a few sticker designs and logos for friends in the next two weeks.

Those are some of my immediate or "short-term" goals. I'll be following up within a week for the majority of them. :]
I know I've set goals before and no actual follow up was made but this time it'll be done. Especially now I have the 'disposable" income I can put towards supplies, materials, and school without any disruption to those finances. :] ALSO, Ian will be on tour for a couple weeks this month so I'll have plenty of focus time in between work.

I'm excited to accomplish goals!
I have so many ideas and endeavors!
I can finally start developing the life I lead into the life I've always wanted. <3


Blog to you soon! :]