You know that moment in the movies when everything is falling into place?
And the main actor gets exactly what they want?
Yup. That's gradually happening to me.
Job. School. Art. Personal Endeavors.
The rest is slowing following.
But one thing is missing...
A friend, maybe?
Or two?
Yeah, I have friends back in Indiana..
Also, I guess my some of my boyfriend's friends can be considered.
I'm mostly looking for a close friend.
I'm the first one to admit I'm a bit unusual and kind of awkward. But that isn't the real reason why I'm stumbling or even hesitant on becoming close knit with another.
In the past I've have dealt with many things that made me uncomfortable with the friendships. Plus I can be a real homebody or often known as a hermit.
Hesitating and hermits aren't good especially when you're starting from scratch..
SOOOO... Step aside awkward turtle! Imma start a friendship QUEST! lol
So my first step was asking for advice from my friend Lauren. She completely understands since we are long distant besties. She has already started a friend search. Her suggestion was using female friendship sites.
I know. I know. Get the jokes out now...
Are you done? Good.
Haha. Okay so I had the same thoughts, jokes, and skeptism.
Seriously, though they're somewhat helpful. I've tried using previous dating sites I've dabbled in a long time ago (before Ian) and changed the setting to looking for friends. My inbox just became cluttered with ridicously, obnoxious people (guys). So I decided to just give joining a female specific friend site a chance. Ian has also decided to introduce me to a few friends and friends' girlfriends.
We'll see.
The introduction part of starting a friendship isn't hard. It's the cultivating part. I do not... know necessarily how to accomplish that? Like I know the steps but it's overcoming the awkward small talk and low maintenance friendship or no friendship mentality I have. I guess that's why I find it SO MUCH easier to be friends with a geeky guy. haha.
Every time I think about acquiring a friend all I can think about is the movie I Love You, Man.
I am the real life, lady version of Peter Klavin. Oh, yeah! Move out of the way Paul Rudd! I have got you! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING!!!!
What do you say?
What do you wear?
What do you go out to do?
After working drinks? (lol)
How do I respond?
If it goes well.. How do I keep it going?
So many questions! After thinking about all my worries I'm kinda of wondering... Why am I over thinking it? How did I get my friends I currently have? How did my previous friendships happen?
I started them through school (elementary, middle, high school), boyfriends, dating, and partying.
Welp. The only thing I've got on there is the boyfriend (which is introducing new people) but why don't have those friendships now?
I stopped partying.
Moral and value disagreements.
They became addicts.
Negativity.
Distance.
Different life paths.
Break ups.
Spouses.
Stealing.
Lying.
Stubbornness.
Or just becoming distant.
In the past I was easily friended by others. I love meeting new people. I liked making people happy even if it wasn't in my best interest. Is that why it's so hard for me now? I understand now that can lead me down a not so great path.
In this quest of friendship here are my goals.
-Become a better friend and stay in contact to those far away that I care for.
-Get back to the open, friendly Andrea that befriended basically anyone...
-But know the difference between who should be the ones kept close
-Let go of the anger still left by the friends that hurt me (present or past)
-Maintain faith in others
-Stop being skeptical of females (haha. A toughy for me.)
-Stop being nervous to approach people you find interesting.
There possibly some others... But I will hopefully be making friends in the city quite soon. This is to be continued...
Operation Friends of Funsies is a GO!
:p
(Sorry if this blog is slopping or jumps around a lot. It was spur of the moment.)
Andrea. :]
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Well Hello There!
Long time no see!
Or chat?
Or read?
Or blog?
Whatever works? I guess.
It definitely has been awhile since my last blog. I bet you thought I forgot about you...
Or the blog?
Or just became very lazy?
Or maybe even just didn't finish what I started? Like the usual end to blogs or self projects?
Nope. Not at all. I've a lot on my plate.
It's less like a plate. More like a dinner platter.
Yup.
A lot on my over-sized, dinner platter.
Dealing with empty holidays. Relocation of another thousand miles or so. Sanity vs. Income.
College plan revaluation. Big steps in my relationship. Entrepreneur endeavors.
Which all of the above have equaled growth in personal life, self strength, faith in myself, faith in others, business knowledge/experience, self worth, life plan, and unfortunately confusion. haha.
Let's dissect this dinner platter. Shall we?
Holidays.
The holidays while growing up where very important to my family. It was the one time of the year where everyone would come together regardless of tiffs that we were in the middle of. It's funny how some people forget that. I never realized how many people that don't make note what the holidays are really about until I couldn't spend time with my family or loved ones. I do believe out of all the financial and emotional struggles from moving so far away so quickly... The holidays last year were the hardest thing I have to go through on my own. That's the one thing I would never wish upon even the most evil of people. Even though it was hard I learned to never take any of the people that genuinely care about me for granted. Also, in hind sight give those people (friends and family) all the time of day and let the others go. Tis' the season for life lessons! Fa la la la laaaa!!!!!
Relocation to Washington.
Woooo! Something I've wanted to do for years finally happened! I've been in love with this state since my first visit to Seattle at 19 years old. Greenery. Coffee. Culture. Music. Thrift stores. Beaches. Delicious food.Locally owned businesses. Lovely people. Dreams. Dreams. Ddddreeams! Even though I'm in the inevitable job limbo at the beginning of any multiple states move.. I couldn't be happier about the move. It's prompted the rise of a couple of old aspirations. BONITA! :)
Sanity vs. Income.
Like with every relocation or job/career change I;m always reminded to ask myself... What is more important money or my happiness and sanity? Sometimes like anyone I get tempted by multiple digits and an extra zero or two added on my paycheck but in the end it never helps. I just want enough to feed me, pay bills, afford a few luxuries, and feel financial secure. There's this pact I've made to myself if I sense trouble ahead in one of the paths I have to decide between I need to sit down and plan out my next step. Is this trouble going to be constant? Even after I get through the initial issue? Will perseverance lead to something I will be grateful for after the fact? Will this lead me to nothing but something I don't want to be? Which decision will be greater in the long run? Those are just some of the many questions I ask. In the end... Believe me. I always go with my instincts now. They tend to lead me in the right and the happiest direction. ;)
College Plan Revaluation.
Aaaargh!!!!! School! This is where most of my confusion rests. I've been pursuing the path of online classes through Berklee College of Music.. but I think I might need to change it up. Currently I'm looking into local colleges in Seattle for my education. I need something a bit cheaper (Even though my first semester or two quarters will be ridiculous because I'm not a resident >.<) in the long run and will also allow me to double major and minor in other interests. If any of you really know me and my history with college... Then you know I can get really frustrated with colleges, FAFSA, student loans, and my family when it comes to my pursuit of higher education. This time I won't let the road blocks that in my past have stopped me. I have two persistent, educational role models as a good friend and significant other. :)
Relationships.
Simple. Don't be afraid to strengthen relationships with family, significant others, and friends. Don't be afraid to let them go when it's time to move on.
Entrepreneur Endeavors.
OoooOOooooOoo. Entrepreneurship is in my blood. Creativity is in my blood. Why not use both? I've just recently decided to start up an accessory and jewelry line. I'm excited for when finally everything comes together hopefully soon. Not only am I excited for this to start and even work out.. I'm thrilled for dead dream being revived. Starting my own real life... in the flesh business! It's a stepping stone to bigger things. It rekindled a dream of a non-profit venue and creative community. :) Rekindling, revising, planning, and brainstorming has begun. Soooo pumped. I was deterred once from a building selling in a silent auction that I based all of my business planning off of. This things will be better. Just give me a year and you'll be seeing this dream present itself again.;D
So many things..
I've learned.
So many things...
I've accomplish for myself.
So many things...
I still need to figure out
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
Or chat?
Or read?
Or blog?
Whatever works? I guess.
It definitely has been awhile since my last blog. I bet you thought I forgot about you...
Or the blog?
Or just became very lazy?
Or maybe even just didn't finish what I started? Like the usual end to blogs or self projects?
Nope. Not at all. I've a lot on my plate.
It's less like a plate. More like a dinner platter.
Yup.
A lot on my over-sized, dinner platter.
Dealing with empty holidays. Relocation of another thousand miles or so. Sanity vs. Income.
College plan revaluation. Big steps in my relationship. Entrepreneur endeavors.
Which all of the above have equaled growth in personal life, self strength, faith in myself, faith in others, business knowledge/experience, self worth, life plan, and unfortunately confusion. haha.
Let's dissect this dinner platter. Shall we?
Holidays.
The holidays while growing up where very important to my family. It was the one time of the year where everyone would come together regardless of tiffs that we were in the middle of. It's funny how some people forget that. I never realized how many people that don't make note what the holidays are really about until I couldn't spend time with my family or loved ones. I do believe out of all the financial and emotional struggles from moving so far away so quickly... The holidays last year were the hardest thing I have to go through on my own. That's the one thing I would never wish upon even the most evil of people. Even though it was hard I learned to never take any of the people that genuinely care about me for granted. Also, in hind sight give those people (friends and family) all the time of day and let the others go. Tis' the season for life lessons! Fa la la la laaaa!!!!!
Relocation to Washington.
Woooo! Something I've wanted to do for years finally happened! I've been in love with this state since my first visit to Seattle at 19 years old. Greenery. Coffee. Culture. Music. Thrift stores. Beaches. Delicious food.Locally owned businesses. Lovely people. Dreams. Dreams. Ddddreeams! Even though I'm in the inevitable job limbo at the beginning of any multiple states move.. I couldn't be happier about the move. It's prompted the rise of a couple of old aspirations. BONITA! :)
Sanity vs. Income.
Like with every relocation or job/career change I;m always reminded to ask myself... What is more important money or my happiness and sanity? Sometimes like anyone I get tempted by multiple digits and an extra zero or two added on my paycheck but in the end it never helps. I just want enough to feed me, pay bills, afford a few luxuries, and feel financial secure. There's this pact I've made to myself if I sense trouble ahead in one of the paths I have to decide between I need to sit down and plan out my next step. Is this trouble going to be constant? Even after I get through the initial issue? Will perseverance lead to something I will be grateful for after the fact? Will this lead me to nothing but something I don't want to be? Which decision will be greater in the long run? Those are just some of the many questions I ask. In the end... Believe me. I always go with my instincts now. They tend to lead me in the right and the happiest direction. ;)
College Plan Revaluation.
Aaaargh!!!!! School! This is where most of my confusion rests. I've been pursuing the path of online classes through Berklee College of Music.. but I think I might need to change it up. Currently I'm looking into local colleges in Seattle for my education. I need something a bit cheaper (Even though my first semester or two quarters will be ridiculous because I'm not a resident >.<) in the long run and will also allow me to double major and minor in other interests. If any of you really know me and my history with college... Then you know I can get really frustrated with colleges, FAFSA, student loans, and my family when it comes to my pursuit of higher education. This time I won't let the road blocks that in my past have stopped me. I have two persistent, educational role models as a good friend and significant other. :)
Relationships.
Simple. Don't be afraid to strengthen relationships with family, significant others, and friends. Don't be afraid to let them go when it's time to move on.
Entrepreneur Endeavors.
OoooOOooooOoo. Entrepreneurship is in my blood. Creativity is in my blood. Why not use both? I've just recently decided to start up an accessory and jewelry line. I'm excited for when finally everything comes together hopefully soon. Not only am I excited for this to start and even work out.. I'm thrilled for dead dream being revived. Starting my own real life... in the flesh business! It's a stepping stone to bigger things. It rekindled a dream of a non-profit venue and creative community. :) Rekindling, revising, planning, and brainstorming has begun. Soooo pumped. I was deterred once from a building selling in a silent auction that I based all of my business planning off of. This things will be better. Just give me a year and you'll be seeing this dream present itself again.;D
So many things..
I've learned.
So many things...
I've accomplish for myself.
So many things...
I still need to figure out
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
Blog to ya soon! :)
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