The Breaking Point.

Living in the land of materialism and "sin" doesn't necessarily help on the path of rediscovery. Everywhere I turn I see people only going the instant gratification route.. Since I've moved I've felt financially pressured, tempted by immorality, and pressured in general into things I don't necessarily want to over indulge in. If you know me thoroughly you may understand that pressure of any sort almost always leads to high anxiety. High anxiety leads to depression. Which is something for the last four years I've gained more control over by maintaining a healthy diet and exercise, spirituality, meditation, being cautious of those I bring into my life, and upholding some consistency in my life.. That control has been particularly hard to hold on to since I've moved to Vegas. My trip to Seattle reopened my eyes to how minimalism is the way I feel the most comfortable living. Not the high roller lifestyle. Lights, clubs, brand new cars, expensive dinners, and label shoes and purses. Don't get me wrong thoughts of those things have crossed my mind from time to time.. But it's not something I see myself being truly happy in or striving for. The things I value more than anything in my life are companionship/friendship, nature, staying true to myself, and creativity. You notice fancy shoes and money doesn't really seem to fit in my life's agenda... ;) All I want to do more than ever is donate most of my things, work in a place creativity is what I'm selling or giving away, to sell my car, live well within my means, ride or walk to work, and fill my life full to brim with people passionate about the same things I am. That is what Seattle does to me. Makes me grateful for what I have, ashamed of what I over consumed in, and makes me want to live in a way that makes me feel comfortable and knowing that I won't be ashamed of myself for taking more than I actually need.

From this moment on I will not compromise anything that I hold true. I can't be anything but myself. Why try?

One of my favorite chilhood books, The Outsiders, has a great line.. "Stay true, Ponyboy." Stay true, Andrea! Stay true! :3 

I'm currently blogging from the plane home to Nevada. Once I get home and settled tomorrow I will post my progress and struggles with my goals and plans. I'm excited to see what I can improve, what I have improved, and what plan tactics need to be reworked!