A month after my relocation (hopefully my last for a very long time) and with the start of the new year...
I feel refreshed.
My support system has never been so solid. Ian is amazing. The nauseating ying to yang theory. Also, I've been working on strengthening my relationships with my family, friends (far and near), and even my co-workers.
It seems that even though everything is beautiful and fitting together so well I still have things, situations, or even people that I'm holding on to.. like ghosts following me and interfering with my life.
It's like I'm trapped. Everytime I'm reminded I go for a spin.
“To be wronged is nothing, unless you continue to remember it.” - Confuscious
I don't know why.
I can't quite understand it.
Maybe now I acknowledge it from having a lot of time on my hands to think and wonder rather than just continue my very fast paced lifestyle.
Maybe that time made me realize I never actually gave myself enough time to get over it...
It's time for me to let go.
It's time to cut ties to those that constantly bring me down.
It's time to forgive and forget.
It's time to realize that the effort I put forth my not be returned but don't let it damper my mood.
It's time to learn who to bring close and who I can bring closer.
It's time to realize that some people have there own things to work through but don't let them work that out on you.
It's time let them be lessons and not hauntings.
Letting go is hard to do when you've had so many moments that you have shared. Or situations that have shown you the true colors of someone else. Or moments that have hurt you so bad that thinking about them years later still makes things swell up inside of you but you have a glimmer of a happy moment attached.
I think this is why I lost myself for a bit. It was a moment that all I had was myself, my past, my present, time alone, and my built up emotions.
Now that I have a solid support system I've never had... I understand.
It's okay that those things happen just give yourself time to reflect, learn, and move on.
I gave myself a day off to think of every single person and every single situation. (I know. I know. Redheaded time bomb... Maybe not such a good idea... but it was. No explosions necessary. lol.)
every single hurt.
every single situation.
And I made myself learn from it. Come to some logical point in my life that was lead up to because of that moment.
Promotions.
Ian.
Learning to be completely selfsufficient.
Moving across country.
Pushing me to go back to school.
How others should treat me.
And helping me overall deal with any situation that comes my way.
Soooo... From all that came with.. All I have to say is thank you, Mr. & Mrs Ghosts! :]
I feel like there's nothing that handle because of each and everyone of my "ghosts."
Life couldn't be better.
I couldn't be happier.
Content. :] Below is a quote I heard.. <3
“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” - Mother Tersea
